last night was good. ricky & i talked and messed around and laughed til like 1am. i got to know him better. i love it when that happens. the next morning’s usually another story, but never told with regret.
we were talking about how God wants to engage with us, in a way. a way foreign to most people. and how people, espec. those like us who grew up in church w/the flanelboard Jesus stories, we don’t really get it. but i think i got a sliver more of it yesterday, if i could share: God isn’t cool with the whole pyramid analogy ~ Jesus 1st, others 2nd, & you last (“J.O.Y.”), a concept i always thought was so noble & humble & tried to achieve, but never could.
He’s not impressed when i goal myself to spend the 1st 20 minutes with him every day for the next week, before anything else. he may smile, but what he really wants is for me to make him not 1st, but centered. whenever i’ve tried to give him my measley 20 minutes “off the top” of my schedule, my time-tithe, i’ve in essence said, “ok, after that’s done, i can get on with my to-do list. coffee, getting ready, work, errunds, working out, homework…” without the guilt. but at the end of the day, i’d usually sit down at the kitchen table & there was always a side-order of guilt there.
UM, server, could you take this back to the kitchen? i thought i ordered God first – an appetizer. so why’s this guilt sitting here?
maybe it’s about performance…ordering him 1st (& out of the way) so i can then focus on the meal of the day – what’s really important & “filling”. it’s really not humble at all, thinking i can check him off and go about the rest of my day on my own efforts. that sounds like arrogant, performance-based religion. cause you know what? lookin’ back, if i made him “1st” & did my morning devotions ever so diligently X-many consecutive days, yeah, the content helped, but there was still that nasty guilt later on. what i did just wasn’t enough.
so last night when my hubs & i were talking about how the Father wants us to make him a part (specifically, the center) of all we do, even the little things, it rang so true in me. that’s something i’ve been missing. i feel like i’m being slowly drawn out of a car wash. i’m seeing this clearly, more than ever.
1st isn’t best anymore; all is the aim. and if my ritual-driven brain can’t seem to manage that term, i’ll reword it & make him the “center” of my daily activites. and if that word seems just too intimidating, i might just focus on thinking about him ~ “including” him…chatting w/him about my thought-life & worries, errunds, kids, with bursts of gratefulness, rants of frustration, or utterances of concern for a friend. i’ll be with him & he’ll be with me. & we’ll just I.M. all day, in thought. a full day with a healthy dose of God sprinkled throughout.
mmmm. that sounds good.
I absolutely LOVE that! How true it is too. Thanks for always so eloquently saying in written form the things that I often think about and feel!
Great post. Something I’ve taught my “teens” in youth group for years. We’ve been brainwashed into trying to put Jesus at the top of OUR list, when in all truth, there is NO LIST.
It’s only Jesus! Like you said centered. It’s more like a wheel with Jesus at the hub. Every spoke that comes from the hub is affected by the hub. When Jesus is our center everything we do is affected by Jesus!
P.S. I’m interested in the “hutto” pics you might take around town.
Hey Chelaners, Great Article! This is what I call a simplistic life of worship. So glad to hear that you get it! I would love to post this on our website with your permission. Please let me know.
Ps. Way to long since we played that game where Ricky made us eat all that (@&#%$&#*) stuff.
I have forgotten what Dog food tastes like.
you can use any of my musings, anytime pastor john!
…you may recognize some threads of mr. jon courson woven through some of them – but i think you’d be ok with that.
thanks for your thoughts