I Healed… Wait… Was That Me?

A Little Background

This is a follow-up post to my last one about being extreme like Jesus was. I welcome feedback always, and love a healthy conversation. So since I did get a little feedback, I thought I’d address it, and go into a bit more detail on what I meant when I wrote the words toward the end, “I healed…”  Originally, I followed those words with 3 things that people I’ve come into contact with have been delivered or healed from, and then I wrapped the sentenced up with, “by the power of God”, to clarify that I did not for a second think anyone was being healed by my own…anything. Since it published, I reworded that sentence to read, “On the other hand, I’ve healed people solely by the power of God, from…” (You can find it just under the 2nd photo. It’s after that, where I list those few things).

I made that edit, moving the phrase “by the power of God” to right after “I healed” because I wanted to be extra clear about it. I know it wasn’t me who originated any healing. And yet, my spirit and individual conviction won’t allow me to change the first two words. So I had to ask myself why. Why not change them to “He healed…”? When first asked about it, what came to mind was how I knew that some of Jesus’ disciples used that phrase – that they healed.

I had a vague recollection that the writer of some stories in the gospels would say, “they healed, or he healed…” speaking of a disciple. I also thought Jesus commanded us to heal. I didn’t know where it all was written, or how frequently, but now I was curious. And curious as to why I felt so strongly.  I’ve been doing some digging ever since.

The rest of this blog post is scattered with the results of my research this past week. It was not my intent to prooftext, but to re-read the Word – the gospels and Acts specifically, each passage in context, like I’d guess the Bereans would.  My goal was to build confidence in what is true. And to find out if what I believe, that Spirit-filled followers of Jesus can heal, and it’s ok for them to say it, is true. If so, it will be laid out in scripture. And if so, nothing anyone says accusing me or any other spirit-filled, healing follower of Jesus, of being fake or self-righteous – should be inconsequential in light of the Word.

Why is This Important?

Here’s the crux of it, I think: Jesus healed everyone who came to him. He came to give life and life abundant. As he walked this earth’s soil, He was, and still is “The (capitol T) Healer”.  There was a transference of power to take place after he ascended. That even sounds wrong… because it’s not like he gave it up and was left with none. He just decided in his mercy and love to share the Spirit with us. Continually available. As a gift.

When he gave his life, he said “It is finished!” I believe that means Jesus accomplished all he came to earth to do. He was done. The prophecies about his life were officially fulfilled. His assignment to preach the kingdom of God was completed. For more on this, check out this sermon all about those three words, It Is Finished.

In completing his work, he yielded his life to the voice of his Father at every turn. The result was salvation. Freedom. Healing. Forgiveness. Righteousness. Peace. Joy in the Holy Spirit (and more). The result that was all-encompassing, was the restoring of people everywhere, back to the Father and the Father’s original design.

Remember when he breathed on his disciples and told them to receive the Holy Spirit (in John 20)?  This was the passing of the power. The handing off of the torch of authority! It makes my heart leap with joy that He would love and trust humanity that much.

21 Jesus said to them again, “Peace be with you. As the Father sent me, so I send you.” 22 Then he breathed on them and said, “Receive the Holy Spirit.

Cause I Have The Same Power

When Jesus left this earth, he said that we would do even greater things than he. Super hard to believe. But I will. Because he said it. Because everyone who believes and follows Jesus from that point on in history has received the Holy Spirit of God. That same Spirit that raised Christ from the dead – now lives inside every true believer (Romans 8:11) living in and empowering each one to do the same, or even greater miraculous works than he did, all done to authenticate his message and give him glory.

NOT only did we get the same Spirit, but John says that God does not give the Spirit by measure. And if he meant that about Jesus, he also meant it about those who Jesus passed his Spirit on to. We have 100% availability to the fullness of the Spirit. Another way of saying it is, it is always near, or “at hand“, for us.

When Jesus sent out 72 disciples (recorded in Luke 10:9) he told them to “heal the sick in that town…”  then added, “and say to the people there, ‘The Kingdom of God has come near you.’” It was a purposeful instruction to declare His Kingdom was near everyone whose health was restored. Jesus gave them a lot of instructions, actually. I counted: these two were #9 and #10 out of 11 of them.

After the 72 returned, they were stoked with excitement and joy because of all the things they were able to do, “even the demons obeyed us when we gave them a command in your name!” Then he says to them, eight verses later, “I saw Satan fall like lightning from heaven. Listen! I have given you authority, so that you can walk on snakes and scorpions and overcome all the power of the Enemy, and nothing will hurt you.  But don’t be glad because the evil spirits obey you; rather be glad because your names are written in heaven.” My husband reads that last part as: take the authority I’ve given you over Satan. Use it without fear. But stop focusing on all the spiritual warfare and demonic stuff. Focus instead, on what you DO have. Life and life, eternal.  

The jaw-dropping feats he accomplished while physically here…he expected and commanded his disciples to do too, and to continue doing even after he ascended. His time on earth was so limited, and the only way his works would continue to change and impact human lives here would be if humans did those works, in a sense, on his behalf. If we did them by his Spirit in us, and in the authority (Luke 10:19) of his name. There must be something about person-to-person, flesh-and-blood interaction. Maybe it derives from his nature to esteem relationship.

Jesus Christ, the Son of Man, knew there would be no way man could accomplish miracles on their own. Miracles are supernatural: supra (above) naturalis (natural), or beyond (our laws of) nature. It is beyond human nature to walk on water, read minds, heal another human with a single touch or word. Yet he commands it. Again and again.

Cause Jesus Said To

In the beginning of Matthew 10, it says, “Jesus called his twelve disciples together and gave them authority to drive out evil spirits and to heal every disease and every sickness. This is also recorded by Mark a few places. And Luke writes, “Then he sent them out to preach the Kingdom of God and to heal the sick…” He added that the twelve left preaching the Good News and healing people everywhere.”A few verses later, Jesus tells them to go to the lost sheep and preach that the kingdom of heaven is near. And he says, “Heal the sick, bring the dead back to life, heal those who suffer from dreaded skin diseases, and drive out demons.”  He follows it all with, “Freely you received, now freely give”. In another passage that is escaping me, he says, “I have been given all authority in heaven and on earth. Therefore go…” as if to say, God gave this to me, I give it to you, so strengthen yourself in it and go! I’m with you. Here’s your green light! Go! In the passages above, Jesus…

a.) gave them authority, and 
b.) told them to do these things.

I am convinced that he:

a.) still gives his followers authority (or has given) and 
b.) is still telling us to do these things.

The only difference is, he’s not in front of us. He’s now in us.

His Spirit who enable all these things, and gives us the grace and power to do every right thing, is at work IN US. But he will STAY in us, if we don’t take intentional steps of faith and action to let his power out.  That is why I still say, “I healed…” Because it is a co-laboring. A partnership. A major way he set up from the beginning, for his glory to be made known on the earth after his ascension.

His omnipotence bubbling over and spilling out, through our obedience to every-day commands to step out of our comforting natural and into the uncomfortable supernatural realm where miracles and healing take place. No wonder he’s left us with The Comforter. I get Paul as I read what he wrote to the Ephesians – that he prays that their minds would open to see…

how very great is his power at work in us who believe. This power working in us is the same as the mighty strength 20 which he used when he raised Christ from death and seated him at his right side in the heavenly world.

He was like, OPEN YOUR EYES, Ephesians! You believe, right? Look at how much power you have in you now! It’s the same power at work in each of you that was at work in Jesus himself, raising him back to life! Isn’t it crazy!? But yet, it’s true!

Cause We are Co-Workers with God Himself

Paul scolded the Corinthian church for having silly arguments about who they were “following”. As if the man is more important than the message. He states so on-point, that we are God’s co-workers. We labor alongside. We rub shoulders. We are His servants. He asks us to do something, and we are to do it. He’s not physically doing the doing part anymore. He’s gone. He’s doing it through his Spirit, giving and entrusting us with the great responsibility of representing him. So we now plant. We water. And He grows.  He always does the growing.

After all, who is Apollos? Who is Paul? We are only God’s servants through whom you believed the Good News. Each of us did the work the Lord gave us. I planted the seed in your hearts, and Apollos watered it, but it was God who made it grow.

It’s not important who does the planting, or who does the watering. What’s important is that God makes the seed grow. The one who plants and the one who waters work together with the same purpose. And both will be rewarded for their own hard work. For we are both God’s workers. And you are God’s field.

Paul states above, that the planter and the waterer work together with the Grower in the heart of man. And that they will be rewarded for their own hard work. What the most important part, I’m reminded, is that “God makes the seed grow”.

God makes the bone align. God makes the torn tendon repaired. God makes the cancer dissipate. God makes the marriage new. God makes the deaf hear. God makes. He restores. He heals. But because he no longer walks the earth, his #1 way to heal, is by empowering us to heal.  It’s like He initiated all growth, healing and life in Jesus.  And then assigned us to administer it. This requires our will, emotions, mind and consequently our actions fully submitted to Him. This is why when I talk about healing, I don’t just say I heal by his power, but sometimes I also say He heals through me. To me, because of how closely we are working with the Spirit, there is little difference. But to others who have perhaps experienced spiritual abuse or seen people heal and take either credit or money for it,  I can sure see why the first claim would sound a bit off. I understand. I just care more, at this point, about doing what Jesus said to do, regardless of how others have distorted it.

James and John’s Confidence in their Authority

This was brought to my attention this week, and I found it amusing – In Luke 9, a whole Samaritan village chooses not to accept Jesus or his message. Jesus  basically says to shake the dust of that village off their feet and keep moving forward, continuing the work of kingdom. But James and John are indignant! Obviously secure in their supernatural authority, they ask Jesus,

“Lord, do You want us to command fire to come down from heaven and consume them, just as Elijah did?”  55 But He turned and rebuked them, and said, “You do not know what manner of spirit you are of. 56 For the Son of Man did not come to destroy men’s lives but to save them. And they went to another village.

Notice: Jesus didn’t rebuke them for asking if they could call down fire from heaven like a New Testament Sodom. I actually think that their assurance of their authority probably made him smile, just a tiny bit. But he rebuked them because of the spirit in which they spoke – it was a spirit that promoted violence, condemnation, and destruction. And that is not the same spirit of Christ. They should’ve known that by then. In the original text (omitted in some translations), Jesus clarifies to them why they’re wrong. His purpose was to save and give life. Not to destroy and take it. But I digress. You just gotta love the guys’ righteous anger and that resolve. They wore what my daughter and I call their “Jesus Badge”.

The authority they carried and we now carry can make all the difference. Now we must learn to carry it with humility, knowing full well that any power that results or manifests as a result of our exercised authority, is a gift that originates purely and solely from the Spirit of God himself.

Acts 14:3 And the Lord proved their message was true by giving them power to do miraculous signs and wonders.

Faith Comes by Hearing (& sometimes Youtube Videos)

Whenever I have healed anyone, (which, by the way, hasn’t been often, and more times than not, I’ve attempted but didn’t get to see the breakthrough I was hoping for) I have done so because Jesus has commanded his followers to heal the sick. I know I’ve already gone over that. It seems so outlandish to even talk about healing as a legitimate act, largely because it’s not practiced regularly by the western evangelical church. And there have been televangelists who have given it a bad name. Only in the last 100 years has it become remotely acceptable again, due to undisputed miracles at renowned revivals like the one at Azuza Street, LA, The Jesus Movement, and more recently and regularly at Spirit-led churches like Bethel in Redding.

I have seen dozens of YouTube videos of other faith-and-Spirit-filled men like Todd White, who heal people in their everyday lives as they go about their errands, jobs and outings.  The watching of and listening to these modern day miracles birthed a faith like never before, in me, to do the same. Or at least try.

Enough months of watching them, and I thought, “Why not me?” So I stepped out and have done it because I’ve seen them do it. I’ve done it to bring authentication to a message God’s given me to speak to them, I’ve done it to exercise my authority, and I’ve done it in the name of Jesus, to the glory of God. Because there is nothing in the world like seeing someone in awe of not only what God can do, but how much he know, cares about and loves each one of us.

WHEW! This has been one extensive post. If you’ve made it this far, I really commend you! And thank you. I have spent all day today, ironically sick, writing about what I’ve researched and sought God for truth these last four days, on believers healing people. I hope I’ve done this topic justice.

For further scriptural context, I’ve included a list below. And as always, I welcome any respectful feedback. All of this post was written with an openness of mind and a spirit of teachability, if that’s a word! I was never on the Debate Team, but I sure love a good, challenging conversation about the Word of God.

Peace and Healing to you!

Chelan

PS – Now, get out of my body, cold virus! Ha ha!

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  • The disciples heal – Mark 6:13, Luke 9:6, Mark 16:20.
  • “Then Peter said, silver and gold I do not have, but what I do have I give you: In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, rise up and walk. And he took him by the right hand and lifted him up, and immediately his feet and anklebones received strength…[Acts 3:6-8].
  • “It is your Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom” – Luke 12:32
  • “And these signs shall follow them that believe” -Mark 16:17
  • “Heal the sick, cleanse the lepers, raise the dead, cast out demons. Freely you have received, freely give”.
    Matthew 10:8
  • Jesus Christ said anyone who believes in him will do the same works that he did and even greater works, because he was going to the Father.
    John 14:12
  • “And Stephen, full of faith and power, did great wonders and miracles among the people” [Acts 6:5, Acts 6:8].
  • Paul went in to him and prayed, and he laid his hands on him and healed him. So when this was done, the rest of those on the island who had diseases also came and were healed” [Acts 28:7-9]

Strength – a poem for Carly

She dug further down in the deep of her heart
And the further she went, the more pain would impart
Past the rejection, past all the lies
For their protection, she casts off disguise

She sees it all
But is blind to her own strength
She sees it all…but her strength

      Upholding them
      Supporting them

      With the strength
      She has from above

In the very last days he spent on this earth
She would fight for the rights of the two she gave birth
Walking the tightrope, shaking with fear
Helping them say all he needed to hear

She sees it all
But is blind to her own strength
She sees it all… but her strength

      Upholding them
      Supporting them

      With the strength
      She has from above

The strength she has from above
From above
She fights with the strength
From above

With the strength from above

Mod Pizza Guy

for the life of me, I can’t figure out why complete strangers or nearly complete, would consider me to be a trustworthy source of information. Why would anyone just go along with what I say? Who am I? Certainly no one they’ve had time to build a relationship or any semblance of trust with. 

So I’ve been asking myself that today, after going to eat at Mod Pizza. The first time I ate there, I asked an employee with tattoos if he needed prayer for anything at all. I think. Honestly, I can’t recall just what the exchange looked like. But it was good. Somehow calming and encouraging. That was months ago. 

He seemed impressed that I remembered his name. People do like to hear their name. I guess I remembered it because my sister and I had just been discussing Sam Smith, as we ate there, last time.

Today I was there with Angel and was about to write down a simple word from God I got for him, and give it to him in my way out, but he found his way over to our area just in time so I blurted out,

I have a message for you.

He whipped around, “Yeah?” intently listening and serious. I said, you may think it’s weird, but… “No I won’t. Go ahead.” So I continued, trying not to break eye contact,

He wants you to know that he cares about even the smallest of things in your life because he loves YOU. It’s a deep love. A love that if you really knew the depth of it, it’d knock you off your feet. So even if something seems too insignificant to bring up to him, it’s not to Him, because it concerns YOU. … 

And that’s about it.

He smiled and thanked me. And he asked my name again, determined to remember mine…even yelling it out again, this time from behind the counter a moment later as we went out the side door. “Bye, Chelan, thank you!”

I have a feeling he’ll probably remember that it means deep water, before he remembers the name, itself.

Later I kept wondering, why he gives my words any credit at all. I’ve only seen him twice in my life. And I have two reasons why he would, that I can think of:

  1. My words give life or they mine gold. They will not discourage. 
  2. My words are accompanied by the Spirit who compels every person to draw near, to hear, to dare to hope for more. They are anointed by God himself. Laced with gold from heaven ~ a bit of God’s glory on each one.

I found myself praying later that there would be no attraction at all there except to the Spirit, & that he would actually be literally knocked of his feet and it would make him remember what I said about the depth of God’s love today and he’d laugh! That would be hilarious-sort of like a backwards prophecy.

Let it be, Lord! Draw him close. Lead him to you, to salvation, to peace, humility, vulnerability, repentance, freedom and redemption in you, Jesus. And lll be open to be your pitcher. Pour out, Jesus. Pour out.

Learning Not to Box – Tracy from Red Cross & Daniel from Xbox

So, the Red Cross called to confirm a donation appt & I asked her right after, “Hey, off topic, but is there anything at all, I can pray for you about?” 

She said, “Hmm. Actually yes! You can pray for me to be able to help care for my neighbor Helen who is 92, & had a stroke. Her sister, 94, died last Tues. Helen’s been my neighbor for 8 years; she’s a missionary’s daughter. I want her strong and in that house of hers as long as possible.

So I got to pray for Tracy and Helen and God gave me a word for Tracy DURING my prayer, that she would be a Voice Of Hope for not just Helen but her whole neighborhood!  She thanked me and said, “Well now I just wanna go and knock on everyone’s door and be that to everyone!” 

Ha! The Lord is so good! 

He meets me every single time I step out! And I’m not the only one. This simple act of asking to pray for someone is possible for every believer and we get opportunities to do it every day by phone in person and even in chat-boxes. 

I was receiving help from an Xbox support person via chat, for over 2.5 hours the other day to straighten out Braylon’s account that had gotten all tangled up with his best friend’s security information. After we were done, I asked him the same thing. I thought, as I typed it, that he might have had emotional stress. He replied right away in the chat box,

“Bless your heart. Thank you. I could use all the positive energy I can get, actually. My mom passed away from breast cancer…and today’s my birthday.”

So I prayed pretty simply for him in the chat, and here’s a screenshot of the end of it.



I don’t even know where he was in the US. I wasn’t face to face or even speaking with him, but God transcends through space, time and proximity. He gives us unconventional ideas, and they actually work!

Give it up for my God! When I stopped putting him in a box, he said, “Actually, this chat-box will work just fine, today, thank you.”

I will keep stepping out because he meets me every time and shines through my every move. My every word. He transcends.



My Kinda Dance – repentance and forgiveness

After Break Free tonight, talking and praying with my awesome friend and prayer-sister Samantha about sex trafficking, I had to stop by Freddies on my way home. I figured I might possibly run into David from about a week ago (https://chelan.me/2015/02/21/david-from-freddies/), but wasn’t sure. What made me wonder, is that I’d picked a random sermon to listen to on my way home from some church called Victory, in my Podcasts. I’d never listened to one from there before. This guest speaker was preaching all about King David. She was specifically using him as a prime example for us to embrace repentance along with forgiveness.

As Freddie’s was closing, I picked a line to check out and then saw it was his line! But he had to shoo me away to self check out. I left, a bit bummed, but then saw him again at the main doors a few minutes later. I turned to him, “DAVID. I told you I’d pray for you, remember?”

He smiled, and I watched it come back to him. So I asked him there in front of the electronic double doors by produce, what I could pray for him about. He said for a stressful real estate deal set to close March 13th or 18th? to go through successfully. And then he asked me if I had anything he could pray for.  I thought about it…& said sure! I applied for a part time job and want it, only if God does. So direction on that.

He placed his hand on my shoulder and we stood there, basically strangers but brother and sister in Christ, and prayed for each other as his co-workers exited the store every minute or so.

After he prayed for me, I prayed for his real estate deal but added a part that I’d just heard from that sermon: that God would help him to see repentance for what it is – a turning away.  And when we turn away from sin, we are turning toward our God who loves us deeply. I prayed for a desire to always turn away and then turn toward, trusting that there will always be a great freedom found there.

He lit up even more and mentioned that there was power in that prayer, & that he feels like what I prayed for him should be “reciprocated”, back to me. And I received it. Cause I’ve always had a hard time with repentance for some reason. But now I’m realizing its the step to take before asking for forgiveness. Like they’re dance partners.

I was thinking, our hands, if they are still filled with undealt with (unrepented of) sin, they will not be able to be filled with his gift of forgiveness. It’s a give and then get. A bit like a spiritual dance. Move toward God a few steps and give up the sinful action or attitude and then move back a few and get freedom and joy that comes from receiving His forgiveness. And a bonus comes when we gain victory over that area. Praise God!

Now that’s my kinda dance.

On the way home from there, the Lord gave me a new song with these words:

Vs1: There’s an outpouring of your spirit – out of our hearts, out of our homes. An outpouring of your spirit – into the streets, into the public places.

Vs2: There’s an outpouring of your spirit – out of the church, out of our songs. An outpouring of your spirit – into our work, & into the lowly places.

Pre-Chorus:

So I will gogogo into my worldworldworld and I will lovelovelove every boy and girlYeah, I will gogogo into my worldworldworld and I will pray – for freedom every day

Chorus: 

Freedom freedom be released

From your Kingdom.

 Kingdom be released!

Bridge: 

Give me a mind not divided, not distracted.

But the mind of Christ.

Give me a mind set upon you, set upon truth.

The mind of Christ.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s_QoWrlITPI

David from Freddies

I got to talk to the Fred Meyer checker tonight and it was so fun and just amazing!

He was fairly young, with the name of David, so I just started it off, as I unloaded my groceries,

So, David, did your parents name you after David in the Bible?

He smiled, I don’t know but he is one of my favorite people! Besides Jesus.

We talked about David & how he was a man after Gods own heart (which he loved) and I said that’s you, huh. Not just a name. He replied, yeah. That IS ME.

I got to give him a prophetic word (without saying that’s what it was) related to how God used David to influence the King with his skilled harp-playing that made evil scatter while he played, then I encouraged him to pray for, & step out in more boldness in the fullness of the Holy Spirit (cause he said he loves that about Paul) and I talked about getting with God alone – that’s where it’s AT. And he’s like, YEAH, it’s all about relationship.
Yeah!!

As I left he goes, Well thanks, I am so glad we had this conversation! and I said, Me too! Next time I come in, I’ll hunt you down and pray with you. And he goes, OK!! GOD BLESS!

And the whole time, the younger bagger gal was listening and once she asked where I went to church. She’s recently visited Horizon. And her sister in law goes there. I would’ve loved to spend another hour there but I had to get home by 10 to make sure I kissed my kiddos goodnight before they drifted off to sleep.

I just love this kind of living!!

A Good Exit – Amy at the Rest Stop

We’d switched seats, and it was ok with me. After all, he drove the whole way up to Lynnwood, Washington from Newberg, Oregon. I wanted to give him a break.  Braylon piped up from the back seat that was laid flat, “I have to go to the bathroom”. Ricky says to me, “Take this exit right here.” I saw no signs for the exit, just the exit number, so I said back, “Nah, this isn’t a good exit to take. There’s nothing here.” still looking for a restaurant sign somewhere. “No, take it. It’s a Rest Stop.” so I swerved into the far right lane just in time. It was Mile Post 93, 11 miles south of Olympia.

The sky was dark and the air brisk. I stretched and looked around, noticing a woman sitting criss-crossed on the concrete. She held a sign, “A Little Gas Money Would Help. Trying to get to Medford”.

“I’ll be back. Gonna go talk to her.” My sweet, patient family waited for me in the car.

I squatted down by her, saying hello, both our backs against the same brick wall. She smiled back at me. I admitted I had no money to give her but I could offer something else. Prayer. To a listening God.

Amy was a slender, white woman in her late thirties, but looked a little worn out, like difficult times had taken a few years without her permission. We had Medford as a common topic as I’d lived there for three years. I tried encouraging her, that once she arrived, it’d be such a great place to live. To start over. Her husband Franklin was in the car, she told me. Her marriage had gone through some “bumps” in recent months. She added that to a short list of things I could pray for. I asked about her health and she said she was ok, but The Spirit in his quiet way, told me to dig a bit deeper. She told me vulnerably, she had Hep C. “Dudn’t give me much problems, though”.

The conversation somehow curved around to Jesus and I asked her if she would ever consider letting Him in, to take over. Now’s a good time to start fresh, after all, with a new chapter in Medford ahead of them (oh- and their three children who awaited them, at her mother’s house). I pointed out that her cardboard sign read “God Bless”. “You believe in God?” and to that she answered, “Oh yes, I know he’s there. He’s always listening.” “Would you want to pray with me to just invite Jesus to set up camp, or live inside of you, to surrender your life – the good and the bad – to him?” She’d mentioned that she knew about surrendering your life and your will to something, because she’d heard the concept in NA meetings.

“I could pray and to take pressure off, if you believe and agree with me, you could just say, ‘Amen’ when I’m done?”

She threw her hands up as if to say, “what do I have to lose?” and said, “sure!” So I prayed for her, thanked God for loving her from the day she was born, and asked him to take her from here.  When she said “amen”, it was like she meant it. Like she’d turned into a big black woman sitting her church pew on a hot Sunday morning. “Amen!”. I smiled and shifted closer to give her a hug and a blessing, and she wished me the best kind of blessing she could think of at the time – safe travels and good luck.

I keep thinking about Amy. I keep second guessing my words, my approach, what I missed… “did I remember to pray for…” I really did forget to pray for her Hep C to be healed and was so bummed about that for 2 days! But the grace of my God rushes in and gives me a holy hug. I believed for it to be done anyway, from afar. He reassured me of his love for both me and Amy. And that He’ll keep placing more people before me that need to know that same love, as long as I’m willing to be open. As long as I’m looking for them. Like you’d urgently look for an exit off the freeway.

“Nah, this isn’t a good exit to take. There’s nothing here.”  Yep.

I was way off.