The More I Seek You, the More I Find You

It brings me to tears nearly every time.

Such intimate lyrics…to think of having this kind of closeness with Jesus – this kind of honesty – it stirs me up inside. Easter Sunday at church, I was near sobbing, picturing myself at that last supper with Him. Next to him. As we took the elements of communion, I envisioned him – how, even in his invisibility, he is still so near me…so available to us all. What kind of love could be that deep to endure the excruciating pain at Golgotha? I am dumb-founded. When I am caught up in his deep love for me, I melt in his peace…a peace that cannot be duplicated or replaced or given by any earthly thing or person. Only Jesus.

What a curious mystery that when I seek Him, I do find him – and the more I find him, and see him for who he is, the more I really do love seem to him back…a love that in return, although genuine, seems so finite. So conditional. It makes me sad. And also sad to realize that there will probably come a day when these lyrics won’t stir my spirit like they do now.

Another song will probably take its place. That’s what’s happened in the past. Most wonderful songs have a sort of shelf-life for stirring. They still encourage and are engaging in the purpose of real worship but no longer touch me and drive me to the core of my emotions like they once did.

Some songs never reach that point. Some are timeless. One is “Why” by Nichole Nordeman. I hope this one remains as another. As you listen and watch this video, picture yourself right there at the table, with Jesus – lost in his love and acceptance…

The more i seek you, the more i find you
The more i find you, the more I love you


I want to sit at your feet,

Drink from the cup in your hand.

Lay back against you and breath,

Hear your heart beat.

This love is so deep,

It’s more than I can stand.

I melt in your peace,

It’s overwhelming

What Matters in your Church Search?

It’s one of the topics the Russ fam is thinking about a lot lately. What’s the church supposed to be like? look like? act like?  What should be high on your priority list when looking for a church home?
Well, I’m not sure how attainable it is in this age & culture, but all we gotta do is look to Acts for a great example. My husband was given this article from his step-mom…and I thought it was too good to not pass along, even if it’s just for my future reference:
One of the most perplexing issues of living the Christian life in twenty-first century America is where to go to church. New believers seeking their first church home, long-time Christians relocating to an unfamiliar place, and even those well entrenched in a particular church must face this issue head on. That’s because so much of what passes for “church” today isn’t really church, at least, not as the New Testament presents it to us. Therefore, if you are seeking a church home, the only place to discover what really matters is in the Bible. The Book of Acts offers us a blueprint for church life:
They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and to the fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer. Everyone was filled with awe and many wonders and miraculous signs were done by the apostles. All the believers were together and had everything in common. Selling their possessions and goods, they gave to anyone as he had need. Every day they continued to meet together in the temple courts. They broke bread in their homes and ate together with glad and sincere hearts, pleasing God and enjoying the favor of all the people. And the Lord added to their number daily those who were being saved.” (Acts 2:42-47)
“They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching…”
The first thing we discover about this early church is a commitment to the teaching of the apostles. These early believers heard Continue reading