The Refocus of a Blog


Ya know, I figure since I got this new, easy zoomed-in domain, it’s about that time to get my writing more focused. I don’t know why, but to me, it seems scattered (pretty characteristic of my self-diagnosed A.D.D. behavior).  But I don’t feel the need to branch out and cover a wide range of topics or to say my piece about politics or the latest headline. I don’t get a lot of traffic (and maybe that’s why), but I am so glad that God has helped me MUCHLY with not being concerned w/”how many & who” visits this lil corner. For me, I’ve found that that way of thinking can get dangerous and lead to…as silly as it may sound…an addiction to social media technolofame (did I just coin that Continue reading


What are you waiting for, faith? (speak your mind ~ there’s a poll!)

We’re in transition. Living here in the Austin area was something we had no real choice in ~ we were continually praying for provision in Southern Oregon while trying to keep a home-business afloat, & then we got a the call… to move to Texas for a great opportunity in Ricky’s field. He’s learned so much & we are so grateful.

But ever since the move back in late August of ’07, we have both had a sense that although we were content, our stay in Texas would be temporary. But again, we left that up to the Lord, as to when would be the best time to return to the Great Northwest and its beloved inhabitants (namely, my entire original & extended family, some of my husband’s,  & our old, but constant friends).

I’m learning a few things during the wait:

  • that my body doesn’t deal well with stress and anxiety when dealing with distance from my family. I had painful & daily stomach problems for over a month just after the move. 
  • God isn’t a one-shot deal, my way or the highway kinda Guy. He understands when we don’t know which way to go, or when. So if you pray for his will & your will to match up, he gently nudges you toward his ideal path. Desires change. Complacency dissapates. Faith emerges, and decisions can be made with clarity and assurance that if He knows our hearts are to just be closer to Him, and to our family, He’ll make a way. Doors will continually open (kinda like the intro to that old sitcom, Get Smart) …or they’ll continually shut.
  • Either way, He will provide. And I will trust in Him. I say that today, but yesterday I was wavering. Tomorrow, who knows how my emotions, faith and addiction to security will play out.
  • There’s always a Plan B with God. Yeah, yeah, He knows the plans He has for me (declares the Lord…) but wait – is that an “S” after plan? I’m thinkin’ that could mean He’s got all kinds of plans for me – not chronologically in place, but like, many plans for every single predicament I find myself in. So if my heart is to 1st glorify Him in my choices, and thankful to be a part of His plan, I really can’t go wrong with any of mine! Oh, cool – here’s a verse that backs me up – one of my moms’ faves – Psalm 37:4

Delight yourself also in the LORD, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. (Amplified vsn adds, “…and secret petitions of your heart”). There’s also that one I love about seeking first the Kingdon of God and His righteousness and all these things will be added to you.

But wait! There’s more!

I’m learning a lot about faith (growing in it, and living it out), and not conforming to patterns of this present age… and about the doctrines that separated the 1st real Christ followers (of the Reformation) from the rest of the world and how in living for others… we are dying to ourselves which makes us an increasingly unique people…and…well, I could write a dozen more things I’m learning & working through & song-writing about. But you’d be here for hours.

I’m just curious…(feel free to fill in the dot AND comment w/the details)

“Jesus” – a song about seeing my reflection in Living Water


By, Chelan Rene’ Russ


The way I lived last week, even last night

Has not been a reflection of you, Lord

The very things I claim are so important

I’ve put myself above and just ignored


Oh, let everything I do

Let everywhere I go

Let every word I say

Seek your glory and your fame





Oh the power in that name…



Jesus! (Repeat)


The power in my life is seeping out

I’m … finding myself so dry and thirsty

I don’t know what my purpose is; I doubt (but I believe)

The sun came up this morning with new mercies…


So let everything I do

Let everywhere I go

Let every word I say

Scream out your holy name…today!

Here’s my attempt to video this song; I think I tried it a few keys too high 🙂 oh well!

raise ’em high…but why?

a way of expression…to open & raise your hands.

why? well, here’s a few why-nots to get things rollin’- nobody should be doin’ it if they feel pressured to or they’re just mindlessly complying with a worship leader, or if it feels extremely awkward or inappropriate. but it’s sure not a good idea to make a habit of  ‘following your feelings’. sometimes i know that i personally have to go against my feelings & raise my hands in times of worship. worship & praise is often a sacrifice, after all. i was thinking today while driving home from a dentist app’t, why i sometimes raise my hand while worshiping in the car. i figure, well, i do it @ church & @ home; why not the car? so people might think i’m weird. Jesus was weird. what i got ta thinkin’ today was:  why do people do it in the first place?

so i did a short study in the Word for some examples of raised or open hands & here’s what i found!

Aaron dedicated the Levites to the Lord as a “special offering“.  later, he raised them to bless his people. solomon prayed in this way w/dedication & sanctification (setting israel apart from all nations, as God’s special possession). One man raised his hands to heaven as he took a solemn oath,  ezra worshipped the Lord as a huge crowd joined in bowing w/hands raised & faces down. the psalms didn’t let me down w/references as a cry for mercy, an offering of praise, & my favorite passage in this study, ps.145:14-17, refers actually to His open hands (rather than raised); it is a beautiful mentioning of 3 ways He satisfies our needs, only possible w/an open hand (italics added):

14 The LORD upholds all who fall,
And raises up all who are bowed down.
15 The eyes of all look expectantly to You,
And You give them their food in due season.
16 You open Your hand
And satisfy the desire of every living thing.
17 The LORD is righteous in all His ways,
Gracious in all His works.

so that’s some of what the Word reads. everyone, if they choose to express themselves this way, may do it for different reasons.  if i do, it’s usually…

  • as a symbol of surrender. in battle, when you give up your rights, when you give up fighting, & surrender to someone’s authority, that is what you do.
  • as a way of saying ‘i give all i have’. everything ~ inside & out. you cannot give w/closed fists.
  • to show outwardly that i want to rec’v (His blessings, forgiveness & mercy). again, you cannot receive gifts tangibly w/closed fists down at your side. i’m realizing again that these are all gifts, unearned, that i need to symbolically grab a hold of & accept as my own.

i guess some more reasons also could be to:

  • physically change posture, helping you to focus & to humble yourself
  • show as a response, “i know the Answer!” or “I agree!”
  • show to God “here i am, i’m Yours! i am set apart & special…use all of me”… & in saying & displaying this, my grudges, my insecurities & my own agenda are pushed aside.