The More I Seek You, the More I Find You

It brings me to tears nearly every time.

Such intimate lyrics…to think of having this kind of closeness with Jesus – this kind of honesty – it stirs me up inside. Easter Sunday at church, I was near sobbing, picturing myself at that last supper with Him. Next to him. As we took the elements of communion, I envisioned him – how, even in his invisibility, he is still so near me…so available to us all. What kind of love could be that deep to endure the excruciating pain at Golgotha? I am dumb-founded. When I am caught up in his deep love for me, I melt in his peace…a peace that cannot be duplicated or replaced or given by any earthly thing or person. Only Jesus.

What a curious mystery that when I seek Him, I do find him – and the more I find him, and see him for who he is, the more I really do love seem to him back…a love that in return, although genuine, seems so finite. So conditional. It makes me sad. And also sad to realize that there will probably come a day when these lyrics won’t stir my spirit like they do now.

Another song will probably take its place. That’s what’s happened in the past. Most wonderful songs have a sort of shelf-life for stirring. They still encourage and are engaging in the purpose of real worship but no longer touch me and drive me to the core of my emotions like they once did.

Some songs never reach that point. Some are timeless. One is “Why” by Nichole Nordeman. I hope this one remains as another. As you listen and watch this video, picture yourself right there at the table, with Jesus – lost in his love and acceptance…

The more i seek you, the more i find you
The more i find you, the more I love you

I want to sit at your feet,

Drink from the cup in your hand.

Lay back against you and breath,

Hear your heart beat.

This love is so deep,

It’s more than I can stand.

I melt in your peace,

It’s overwhelming